Never have I thought I'd one day be living in a different country. A country where its inhabitants speak different languages, pray to different gods, their houses built on top of each other. It's beautiful. Singapore. Stern and concrete subdued by the ethereal nature. Clean. Safe and straightforward. I have fallen in love not only with a beautiful human but to the beauty of Singapore itself.
Here's the thing. I am about to hit my head with a humility baton, and remind myself I am lucky to be with the person I want to spend my life with. Being a Filipino, with thousands of fellow Filipinos scattered around the world, unable to spend a birthday, a Christmas, all the good and anticipated times of the year, and worse, the bad ones too. Stuck at their desks, taking care of another's child, aiding a disabled, saving a life. When the very ones that matter to them most are infinite miles away, the stars being the sole witnesses of their sorrows.
I miss the Philippines. Mainly because 99% of the occupants of this aching heart are there right this very moment. Some may be snoozing, or is trying to since the karaoke machine next door is too loud. Or having a classic food trip in one of the countless eating stops that grow there like mushrooms overnight. And boy, do I miss my mama's cooking. Don't get me started on those Adobo Squid with coconut milk. Oh my sweet baby Jesus. Love you ma!
I miss my family and friends. So so terribly, achingly much. Is it weird to say my laugh is different here than in Pinas? I don't know how to explain it. It's a muscle I don't get to use as much anymore. It's not sad. It's different, I guess. Somehow an adaptation? Evolution? Indigestion? Who knows? But what I do know for a fact is that I am genuinely and insurmountably happy. I have used that word too many times these past few days. Its meaning becoming clearer and clearer every day since I have begun this new life. This new shining leaf. It's all about contentment. Knowing your needs and wants. Weighing them. Differentiating them. Decisions being made and committing to them. I chose to be happy. Made and continuously making decisions to stay happy.
How about you,wandering reader? How happy is your wandering soul?
'til next time.
Yours and hungry,
Rosey
PS.
I present to you semi VLOGS or attempts in the Philippines that made me oh so nostalgic. Did I mention I do youtube now? Yeah, I know. Weird right? Might I add it is, all of this is, undeniably therapeutic.
ENJOY!
3 comments:
Rose, ever since you started this blog, I have always been a fan! If my memory serves me right, nalaman ko itong blog mo dahil one time naalala lang kita bigla and wala ka na noon sa Facebook. Thanks to Google, I found you. Madami din nakakamiss sayooo and isa ako dun. Weird kahit ndi naman tayo super close. Hehe. Mag ingat ka palagi dyan. ��
PS
Kinikilig ako sainyo ng husband mo tuwing lalabas sya sa Vlogs mo. It reminds me of your heartbroken entries.
Hello there! Awwww you made my heart so happy today! Really. Thank you so incredibly much. You make me want to write more and more. And the vlogging!! Ahhhh super nakaka frustrate kasi I really want to do better! Need ko kapalan ang face and just do it! Walang hiya hiya! Thank you for making my day! Hope you have a great one too! Sending big virtual hugs to you!
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